What I am learning

I have known that I am good father.  Having my daughter removed from my life has exposed me to depression, anxiety, and perhaps what is considered post traumatic stress disorder.  The events of the past come crashing on to me when I don’t expect it sometimes and it overwhelms me.  However, the best experience thus far is learning that I am not alone in this situation and that I have learned to appreciate God more than ever.  I have seen the evils and evil people manifested before me.  I can be a victim of this or be one who stands against that which wishes to destroy me.  I am one who defends in the name of our Father.

I have learned that to attack evil it is best to be humble, meek and honest.  If anyone wishes to be Christian, you have to be this first.  This is what I am learning to appreciate.

My situation with my daughter isn’t over and will never be over.  I am not living a normal life and I am giving thanks to God because He still believes in me and in me He has a believer.  ”I am not perfect before you, Father, I wish to be weak and understand your love.”

To my daughter,  I love you and your heart is in mine.  It is unfortunate that you have to go through this but I pray that God has you in his own heart.  You represent love as the same love our Father has for all of us.  I am happy and proud to be your father.  Nothing makes me happier than the memory of you in my life.

Love,

Daddy